This virus..

..really sucks.

My right eye used to be just red, a bit swollen, teary all the time and I get the feeling of the muscles around it being pulled dangerously close to my eyeball popping out when I bend down. The teary part is just a chore; I have to wake up every 10 minutes to wipe my eye when I'm about to sleep but still half awake, but when I do fall asleep and subsequently wake up I'll have trouble opening my eyes 'cos the dried up discharge cause my eyelids to stick together. I've been sleeping a lot these few days because of my eyes, but even then I don't really feel very rested 'cos I have to wake up every now and then.

On Thursday, it got both my eyes, which caused me to miss school to see the doctor on Friday. I got two new eye drops from there; one to be applied once every two hours (let's call this one A) and the other four times a day (B). A really stings when it is applied and somehow a few minutes later some very bitter phlegm will form in my throat. B is okay; it doesn't do anything noticeable to me. It's troublesome to apply these eye drops since I have to apply B 15 minutes after A when the timing clash, not to mention the fact that I have to run to the sink to spit like twice every two hours. Since Thursday, it's been painful to blink.

Today I had a PW meeting to do WR draft; in the afternoon even though I could feel my eyes getting worse they were still relatively fine, but now I can barely open them. The whites of the eyes are redder than I last saw, the eyeballs are swollen and feel like they're gonna burst, now it's painful to even move them around and basically it's just painful. It may sound like I've been exerting my eyes too much or something, but actually, I slept after dinner, from 6.30 to 9.30 pm (minus the waking-ups every 2 hours).

This is the first time I've felt this way in a long time, but I really want to do my homework (plural!), study for Chemistry SPA and Maths test for Tuesday and practice guitar for Wednesday's lunchtime concert. I'm supposed to go to the zoo for SL training on Monday, and I'm wondering whether I can even go.

It's an evil virus too; it hurts so much more when I'm about to cry.


Gosh I whine too much.

rofl.

I love Grey's Anatomy. Period. xD

maze.

Openly showing pain,

thinking about others' views towards me,

interacting with people without any reservations,



it doesn't feel like me.





I hate being vulnerable.

i don't care.

bye bye.

music. yes. xD

In an attempt to balance my KPop songs to my other language songs in my music library, I recently listened to any artist I know that I've lost touch with, lol. xD

So!
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David Cook - Time of My Life

I've been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn't see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I'm coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin' my world start to turn

[Chorus]
And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I'm rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

[Chorus]

And I'm out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I'm keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
My face to the sun

[Chorus]

Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know
This is the time
This is the time of my life.
This is the time of my life.

Credits: kovideo.net
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I like this song the first time I heard him sing it after he won, love the CD version, adore the LIVE version. ^^

Cook's winning moment made me like him even though I didn't watch the season; I loved how he seemed like a big brother to the younger Archuleta, to how he didn't break off when singing his winning song even when he was crying. I think he's very versatile (after listening to his performance audios) and has good singing technique. The only thing is that his voice sounds hoarse sometimes that I can't really hear the words. But that's okay since it sounds nice. =)
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蔡旻佑 - The Love I Know (audio)

One day someone X me
what does love really mean to me
I said how should I know
I have never been in love before

But there is something that I know
It truly tortures when it comes to love
And there are some things that I have seen
Love doesn't always shine and gleam

[Chorus]
If you wanna know what I think
I think I'll tell you that I still believe
Believe that one day it'll be my turn
to fall into the mess I have seen before
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This song is not bad and I like the lyrics, even though I have no idea why there's an "X" there instead of "asked", LOL. xD It's in English and there's a Chinese version too in the album, but I prefer the English version 'cos I heard it first, haha.

I listened to 蔡旻佑's album and actually found that I like most of songs there, including the ballads and the rock-ish songs. [Stay with Me | 我回來了 | 2人 | 没有人要的孩子 | 老地方 | 台北21℃] I think that some songs are Avril-Lavigne-influenced (like the line "k fine so whatever" line in 我回來了 and the beginning of 没有人要的孩子), but the songs are generally good.

Anyway, he composes all of his songs, writes some of the lyrics, plays guitar, piano and violin, sings considerably well, looks not too bad (he got so SKINNY; is that a good or bad thing? =X), all at the age of 21 (phew). He sang Jay's 雙截棍 ballad version on the spot and honestly it sounds good, so much so that after he sang it 小猪 was like, "你会红啦!" and sang him praises, lol. (His smile while singing the "雙截棍~ 雙截棍~" line is funnily adorable lmao.) So I really think I should pretend that I never heard anyone calling him "the next 周杰倫" before. 'Cos that'd just brings in the comparison, and uhm. Let's just stop it at that. xDD But yeah, seriously, 蔡旻佑, you're talented and all, but you've still got a long way to go, so 加油! =)
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吳克群 - 為你寫詩 (MV)

愛情 是一種怪事 我開始全身不受控制
愛情 是一種本事 我開始連自己都不是
為你 我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是 為你寫詩

[Chorus]
為你寫詩 為你靜止 為你做不可能的事
為你 我學會彈琴寫詞 為你失去理智
為你寫詩 為你靜止 為你做不可能的事
為你 彈奏所有情歌的句子 我忘了說 最美的是你的名字

愛情 是一種怪事 你的笑容是唯一宗旨
愛情 是一種本事 我在你心裡什麼位子
為你 我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是 為你寫詩

[Chorus]

我什麼都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的名字
我什麼都能忘記 但唯一不忘是你的樣子

Credits: kkbox.com
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This song is so MUSHY, lol. But I like it! xD (I'm not a total pessimist and sadist, okay.) The scene of him playing the piano with his back to the piano is quite cool, and him being taught how to play piano by little kids is just so funny; it actually reminds me of myself, haha! The ending of the MV is kinda corny, though. xPP

I think 吳克群 is a very good lyricist; I just LOVE how he can make every line rhymes. (Like also in 牽牽牽手 and 我不管 of the new album.) He's got his own style of composing (I don't know how to describe it =X) and singing. I like his voice a lot; it's low and deep and he sings with groove. 8D He composed AND wrote every song in this album; it's really commendable. =) However, even though I like a couple of songs in his newer album, I prefer his previous album. I may have to listen to them more though, maybe the quirky songs will grow on me. xP [牵牵牵手 | 越爱越难过 | 我不管 ]
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Yes, this one long post is only tagged with "music". =D

lols.

My right eyeball feels like it's about to pop out. I've never seen my eye so red before, haha. My brother might have spread his eye infection to me. -.-

I'm into catchy songs now. xD

dry laugh.

The detestable, weak and cowardly side of me that I buried long ago is starting to emerge.

Control!

I can't go back; not when it took me so much effort to change.




I'll survive through this.