o__o.

"ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE IF YOU JUST BELIEVE."

Mugging time! (After I read Skip Beat! xD.)


EDIT: *sigh* Seriously, life's just really ironic sometimes. Even Skip Beat! is making fun of me.

the 123456789th reason to love Kyouko!

..is how totally FRANK she is. (Blogger's still not letting me upload pictures, so I can only give you a link -.-.) She's just really awesome x).

Somehow I feel like reading Skip Beat! all over again from the start, for the.. 5th time xP.

haha.

Sometimes the irony of life really makes me laugh, haha.

I have a spot reserved for myself in hell. Figuratively speaking, that is, for I don't actually believe in heaven and hell. So it doesn't matter to me if I'm going to hell, if it actually exists. I'm a bad person, haha.

iceiceice.

Honestly, I didn't expect Theo to really come to my school today, haha ^^;;. THANK YOU THEO ♥♥♥! I'm really really touched :).

Sorry people, for being so random today. I was kinda unstable so I was just trying to find ways to make myself feel better, haha. I'm really over it now, though! I'm very honest so you better believe me xD.

Chee Ying! Seriously, you know I love you right x).

I'm gonna eat a lot of ice or something. Then I'll go back to my "cool" self :).

I solemnly swear that I'm up to no good gonna start studying tomorrow >:D. I suddenly feel the urge to study, haha xD.

random thoughts.

1. I realised that all this time when I watched dramas, I scoffed a lot at the characters' actions or emotions. For me, everything seemed to be clear-cut; there was no grey area and it was always obvious what the characters should do. But now, I'm not that sure anymore. I can't say confidently what I'd do if I were to be in their shoes, for now I know that even though I might know what I should do, my feelings might be telling me to do something else; something that I know I shouldn't do but I can't help but doing it anyway because either way I'd be in pain. It's like, I'm now enlightened, LOL. All those characters I laughed at, sorry! I was not mature enough to understand those complex feelings.

2. It's easy to say something, or to tell yourself that you don't feel something. But it's not that easy to actually do what you say, or to even believe what you're saying if it isn't what you feel. And it's really difficult to pass the days, when the days when you're happy are the ones where you're repressing the sadness that threatens to overwhelm you the moment you stop telling yourself to be happy. Because the moment the crowd is gone and there's no reason for you to stop acting all fine and cheery, it all comes back crashing down on you.

3. I really, really like nice people! These people always make my day. This includes the nice friends I have x). But LOL, I realised that I use the word "nice" too many times when I describe people, HAHAHA. So I checked the thesaurus and looked for synonyms, and got these: affable, amiable, friendly, genial, good-natured, personable; among many others. I shall try to expand my vocabulary >:D.

4. Maybe only people who are blind can say really truthfully that they don't care about their image. Maybe only people people who are deaf don't care whether others are gossiping about them. But everyone has feelings, so maybe that's why they can not care about others' feelings, for they are sometimes too preoccupied caring about their own.

5. I've been really childish, haha. To think that I wrote "emotional maturity" as one of my personal qualities, LOL. Thank you for putting up with this moody, weird person. Let's be normal :).

6. 快向快樂出發! :D

i can go to jail already, LOL xDD.

I'm very happy today :DD. It's a good thing I decided to go to school after all!

To everyone who wished me a happy birthday, thank you! :)

Random: I don't know why, but it seems that my mum never heard of the term "platonic friendship" before, LOL.

she had a bad day.

I think nice people just have that effect on people x).

I don't feel like going to school tomorrow.


Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong


Pain is an illusion.

finally.

I think I'm quite a perceptive person; I can read situations fairly accurately. And I get it. Sometimes I'm amazed by my own brain, haha ^^;;.

I love you and that's all I really know
..but I decided to love myself more.
So, bye bye!


행복해줘요

:)

unproductive.

I officially dislike weekends >:[.

wasted day again >.<.

I wonder why it is so difficult for me to study on Saturdays :(. Like, I'd wake up late, have late breakfast, use the computer, have late lunch, then when I wanna study I'd feel sleepy so I'd take a supposed-to-be-one-hour-but-ends-up-to-be-four-hour nap, then when I wake up it'd be dinner time and the whole day is gone just like that -.-. I think I need to get out of my house.

i can take care of myself.

I don't care anymore, haha.

happy day :DD.

Was totally happy and high today! Wow, I haven't felt this happy in weeks, haha.

I'm sorry.

bad day.

They said that I'm scary.

So you should be scared of me, since all the negative energy I'm unconsciously emitting is actually directed at you.

Skip Beat chapter 144!

The newest chapter was out today ^^. It's SO EXCITING, omg, it just made my day :DD.

How often do you get Ren looking like these (1 2) and Shou looking like this in one chapter? xDD

I can't wait for the next chapter! I predict that Ren's gonna blow up; he's really scary when he's angry :S.

short term solution.

The only thing I can do now, is to focus on feeling happy and try to not feel depressed about feeling happy. That's the only way I can be, to be able to function properly now.

So right now, I'm hammering this into my head: IT'S OKAY.

emotional maturity.

I was typing my Personal Qualities (PQ) draft, and along the way I was pondering what to write for the third quality my PD Tutor suggested me to include, emotional maturity. It's not an easy quality to prove, haha ^^;;. So I went online and took this test, and well, apparently I scored 80.91%! Wow. If only online tests can be used as evidence, LOL xD.

you never said, you never said, you never said
that it would be this hard

She jokes around with her friends, makes some funny comments.
Turning around, she walks straight ahead, a blank expression on her face.
She shuffles her feet, wonders why they feel so heavy.
Realising that she's moping around yet again, she shakes her head and takes a deep breath,
hoping that the stone in her chest will go away with the next exhale.
But it does not, and nothing's changed.
She smiles ruefully and continues walking ahead.
And no, she's not okay.

a couple of performances ^^.

I've been following F.T Island's performances on music shows, but I'm just too lazy to post them here xP. They've been going to other shows as well, and there, they get to play their instruments LIVE; how awesome is that :DD. Here are some of them!

Song 2 @ Kim Jeong-Eun's Chocolate(Aug 1, 2009)

A cover, original by Blur. I can unbiasedly say that I like FTI's cover better, 'cos I like Hongki's voice much better :D. His English sounds much better than usual here too! He's such a bundle of energy on stage, jumping across the stage while singing and just naturally moving to the beat; it's a pleasure watching him perform ^^. (Jonghun has very good showmanship too, by the way; I've always noticed how he makes bigger movements while strumming his guitar compared to Seunghyun, or just naturally bending forward during his solos.) The instruments are all perfect! I really enjoyed watching this performance :).

090807 Make A Wish @ Yoo Hee-Yeol's Sketchbook

It's a cover; original by Ellegarden. I love the slower part of the song! The faster part sounds kinda messy, but I watched the original and apparently it's supposed to sound like that ^^;;. Hongki's Engrish is still bad, but at least I can make out quite a lot of the words here xD. He sounds really really good though; such a pretty voice ♥♥♥. I've got to rip the audio >:D. Jaejin did a great job as the back-up vocals! And the instruments sound great; love Seunghyun's part :D.


090809 2NE1 - Last Farewell @ Inkigayo

Original by Big Bang, of course xD. I love this performance! The girls sound great; they totally did the song justice :)). My favourite part is CL rapping to GD's part in the middle; she's awesome :DD.

She said,

Don't worry, your secret's safe with me.
I won't tell anyone you have feelings.

brain dead.

I've been playing brainless online games recently, because I've been feeling like my head is so full that I can't think at all. At least, I don't need to think when I play those games.


I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

deja vu.

"I can't concentrate."
Doesn't that line sound all-too-familiar.

I wonder what it feels like to wear your heart on your sleeve.
Not that I'll ever know, I guess.
Once a rock, always a rock, right?


You'd think that I'd learn my lesson by now
But it turns out, I haven't learned a thing

no, you still can't see through me.

I don't think I have ever laughed more in one hour than I did during break today, which says a lot about how my day was :D. I think I laughed too much though, 'cos after that one hour when I was totally high, my energy level plunged rapidly to a very low value, such that I was feeling really sleepy during the last lesson (Maths tutorial). I'm really sleepy now, so I'm gonna hit the sack right after posting this.

By the way, I am not fierce! I was smiling throughout the lesson and was paying attention. At times I sniggered 'cos sometimes I found certain things amusing, but I wasn't laughing at the person who was talking. Oh well, actually it doesn't really matter. lalala~


So, can you hear me when I call your name?

all the troubles of the world.

I need to read a book, or watch a movie. A science-fiction with thought-provoking concepts. Something that would make me breathe in deeply and get lost in thought hours after reading it. Something that I'd first dismiss as being utterly impossible, but after reading, I wouldn't be so sure anymore. Something that would make feel amazed and scared at the same time. Or a romantic comedy that can make me laugh and cry at the same time. Something that would challenge my skeptical view on love and feelings. Something that makes me snort in disbelief, without admitting that it stirred up something inside me.

Something, something.