I had a dream last night. In the dream, I was crying. And I woke up, sobbing.

It's kinda funny how every time I listen to I Don't Care, I'm reminded of you and all the stupid things I did, and as I sing along to the chorus, a small voice in my head says, "But I do care."

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F.T Island - Hello Hello

OMG DAEBAK YAAAAA.

Okay I really love this song, so I'll start off with the not-so-good first. Initially I was so excited for this song as I was expecting an awesome guitar solo like the one in the teaser. So I was quite disappointed that in the full song, the guitar is just in the background and actually not a solo at all. BUT then again, I really like the whole song and the awesome guitar can still be heard, so I don't mind it much XD.

The verses of the song sound quirky with the acoustic guitar; love it! It's so unexpected. And like I said, I absolutely LOVE the guitar. Can't wait for Jonghun to kill it on stage! All the instruments are great, basically. Hongki sounds so AWESOME in this song. I mean, he always sounds awesome, but really, try having someone else sing this song and I bet it wouldn't sound half as good. The song is like made for Hongki to sing! Jaejin and Seunghyun's rapping are good too. And I like how this song doesn't sound that whiny and yet is really emotional. I like the lyrics too, somehow. I just love everything about the song, WHAT.

The boys are looking gorgeous too! Hongki's hair cut/colour and black nail polish remind me of his After Love look haha. Jonghun looks sooo good with that ponytail! Wished there was more Minhwan in the MV but he's looking good like everyone else is hehe.

I have a feeling this song is gonna do very well! FTI hwaiting ♥♥♥.

周杰倫 - 麦烝玮（我叫小麦）

LOL OMG JAY. I LOVE YOU.

Jay composed (he edited Lara's song, 我不再怕) and wrote this song and directed the MV. What can I say? Even such a song that was made for laughs sound so damn good! Jay's spontaneity is one of the many reasons why I love him ^__^. I've been listening to nothing but this song since I heard it a few hours ago, even though I was looping Beast's AWESOME new album then lol. Jay sounds totally good in this song too! If only I can strip away the autotune ^^;;. And both the song and MV are SO HILARIOUS LMAO. Sigh, only Jay can make me laugh so much with his songs :)).

One word: 屌!

I CAN'T WAIT FOR JAY'S NEW ALBUM OMG. But Jay, don't you dare autotune your new songs okayyyyy! Consider yourself warned LMAO XD.

Beast 1st Album - Fiction And Fact

Finally, after four mini albums, Beast has released a full-length album! I thought they were never going to release one and just keep releasing mini albums lol.

I can't get over how awesome all the boys sound SIGH. They all just sound really amazing and their songs now have a distinctive Beast flavour that sets them apart from the other gazillion songs in the KPop scene now. So I'm just gonna put this first: I love this album. It's great, it's awesome, it's SO BEAST.

I think Dongwoon is now officially the 2nd main vocal, along with Hyunseung :). They take turns singing the first part of the choruses, while Yoseob sings the second part. It's such a big upgrade for him since even up to Lights Go On Again, he used to be the member with the least lines. It just goes to show how much he has improved and that the company recognises that as well ^__^. I still remember how he used to sound kinda stiff in Beast's early days. Look at how great he sounds now; I'm so proud of him!

A complaint, though: it's great that Dongwoon is getting a lot more lines, but in exchange, Kikwang is getting sooo little lines! It's like equivalent to what Dongwoon used to get. Cube, can't you just distribute the lines a little more evenly? x___x

1. The Fact

As always, Beast's intro songs are good. Yoseob kills me with his part omg. My favourite part is probably Kikwang's repeated "It's a lie" and "This isn't the truth" though lol. It's kinda haunting.

2. Fiction

I already spazzed about it at length here, so I won't repeat it here. But I didn't mention how awesome the boys' falsettos are. And Doojoon sounded like he was about to break down during his part at 3:17; it sounds so sad :(. Anyway, I really love this song ♥.

3. Back To You

At first this song didn't do anything to me, to be honest. But after a few listens, it grew on me. It's such a catchy song! Don't be fooled, though; the lyrics are sad :/. Love the heavy beats in the bridge! OMG there's autotune in the chorus! Beast never used to use autotune, but since it's really not much and it complements the song, I guess it's alright ^^.

4. You

Such a sweet, warm song! Dongwoon's voice in the beginning sounds so good ^__^. Ahh I love this song. "You, you, you~"

5. Freeze

Junhyung personally composed, wrote and arranged this song! He's always done a great job writing his raps, so it's a not a surprise that he'd write good lyrics, but it's so unexpected that he'd compose such an adorable song lol SO CUTE XDD. He did a good job though :). I'm looking forward to seeing more of his works in the future!

6. Virus

One of my favourite songs in the whole album! It's reaaally good. Love the distinctive beat and the whole feel of the song. Yoseob's rock-ish voice in the last chorus = LOVE. I always spazz over it every time I listen to the song; I can never get over that, so don't bother telling me to XD. That high note near the end is omg! I think that's Yoseob, but I'm not entirely sure. Whoever it is, it's amazing yo~. And I love the lyrics even though they're so sad sigh.

7. 불러보지만 (Calling You)

I like the rock-ish edge in Yoseob's voice in this song ^___^. And his long note near the end is great!

8. 비가 오는 날엔 (On Rainy Days)

THIS SONG. It's one of the songs in my "poison" playlist lmao. It's SO SAD. The lyrics kill omg. But it's really, really awesome. The members expressed the emotions of the song really well. There was news saying that the recording of this song had to be stopped a few times 'cos the members cried. Sigh, I totally understand. Anyway, Yoseob's falsettos give me goosebumps. And the whole song sounds so peaceful; just like the title, it's the perfect song to listen to during rainy days. Love the guitar throughout the song.

9. Lightless (Unplugged Ver.)

Beast sang this during their concert! I really like this version. Love how the heavy beats in the original song are replaced by guitar and percussion, and the more soothing way the members sing the song. Dongwoon sounds so emotional in his part. I loved the original song, but I really like this too! I can't decide which is better so DON'T MAKE ME CHOOSE.

10. Fiction (Orchestra Ver.)

One word: AWESOME. It's an orchestra version, which means lotsa awesome instruments. And because the beats are all stripped down, the boys' voices really shine here. I usually don't even bother listening to remixes/whatever versions of the same song 'cos I usually like the original version the best anyway, but Beast make reeeeally good new versions of their songs.

I'm so proud to be a B2uty :).

Beast - Fiction

OMGOMGOMG.

Firstly, I love this song! LOVE that little melody on piano in the beginning that keeps getting repeated throughout the song. It's sooooo nice! Well basically this song has awesome piano. And the sound of writing on a parchment is a nice touch. Can someone make me an instrumental only version of this song please omg!

The thing I always love about Beast's songs is that they are really tight -- not one second of the songs feel like a waste. There are enough instruments and sounds layering the song in the background that serve as solid foundations for the members' voices, plus heavy beats throughout the song. So to be able to appreciate the song one has to listen to the whole song, complete with the instruments and all, and not just the voices. And I love that. I think Junhyung's rapping plays a part in that as well, especially when he's rapping over another member's singing. And how amazing are the boys' voices here?! Yoseob is flawless as always and I can never profess my love enough to him, but the other members sound just as good! Dongwoon has improved a lot and I'm so proud of him :).

Secondly, the choreography is awesome! The footwork part is amazing and it looks totally chill and cool in my opinion. Plus it's quite unlike any choreography others have done, so it's something new and is sure to be remembered easily by the viewers. It may look like just feet shuffling, but according to the members' tweets, it's very hard to learn ^^;;. And of course Beast has neat group dance, but we'll have to wait for the live performance to see it more clearly. But anyway, Prepix+Beast FTW!

Thirdly, the boys look hella gorgeous in the MV! Really like Hyunseung's slick short cut and orange hair. He has the best hair this time round, I think ^_____^. Junhyung, I have clearly forgotten how hot he looks when he's rapping, especially with eyeliner on asdfghjkl. I'm not really diggin' Kikwang's tan 'cos it makes him look way too serious when in fact he's a squishy innocent adorable kid, but hey he still looks good so it's okay XD.

Lastly, the MV itself. I like that set where the boys are dancing in army-colour-looking clothes! Awesome lighting. The tunnel-looking set reminds me of Shock MV and the one with sunset colours looks like the one in Bad Girl MV dance break part. Junhyung's hair in that sunset set also looks like the one in Bad Girl lol XD. Doojoon's look at 0:51 and 3:27 will HAUNT ME FOR LIFE OMG. And and Park Bo Young is SOOOO PRETTY *__*.

Can't wait for their comeback stage! Sigh. BEAST IS THE B2ST.

張芸京 - 偏愛

I think this might just be my favourite song of hers :). It changes quite frequently, actually; somehow at different times I tend to listen repeatedly to one song of hers. At first it was 讓我照顧你, then 1030, then when the second album was released it was 相反的我 and 我不愛你了. Now it's back to this song from her first album, 偏愛, and I don't know, the way 阿京 sings this song just gets to me, every time. Her voice, man. It's amazing.

I love her. I really do :).

Dream High

(Dramawiki)

I know that everyone has probably watched this drama, but I'm just going to say that if you haven't already, GO WATCH IT. It's really, really good.

The only thing I can criticise about this drama is the lacklustre acting in a few scenes by some of the actors. Most of the time they did well, though. But just for this reason, this drama can't quite make it into my favourite dramas of all time. Still, it's probably one of the dramas I most enjoyed watching :).

I want to whine that I had wanted a different main pair to get together in the end because they had been with each other through their most difficult moments and they knew each other, but even as I'm typing this I realise that the same can be said for the other couple, so I'll shut up and grudgingly congratulate them for finding each other XD. (Who am I kidding, I like them together actually ^^.)

My favourite scenes out of the whole drama are the singing/dancing ones, because that highlights what the whole drama is about: the kids' passion for music. The songs are good too! (One example.) And well, probably the Jason/Pilsuk scenes as well, which made me squeal till no end at the cute. Or the bro/sismance between all the characters, which are adorable and hilarious at the same time. Or how totally awesome some of the characters are (Teacher Kang!), by themselves. Okay I'm listing practically everything, because I really do love everything about this drama :). The writers did a splendid job in writing the storyline and characters!

Just watch it ^^.

JYP - 못 잊은거죠 (Can't Forget) (If)

Says who?

Sigh.

I love Yoseob.

Just putting this here 'cos it's a fact, haha ^^.

I LOVE GREY'S ANATOMY. It's so goddamn HILARIOUS omg!

Big Bang - Love Song

Finally, a Big Bang song that I LOVE, after a long time ^^. My favourite line? The repeated, "I hate this love song" LOL. I like the whole song's lyrics actually. The MV is kinda irrelevant though haha.

I realised that when it comes to the members' solo works, I like Taeyang's far more than the rest, but in Big Bang, I like G-Dragon, G-Dragon, G-DRAGON. His swagger is just off the charts; he owns the stage and the camera. Still, it's outrageous how little Daesung gets to sing in each song. OUTRAGEOUS.

Code Blue Season 2

(Dramawiki)

This drama is BAD FOR MY HEART. I even stopped watching in the middle and put off continuing it for like 2 months lol. Seriously, I can't watch this drama without doing something else at the same time, be it surfing internet/eating/whatever. Otherwise I'd be crying my eyes out every 5 minutes. Okay that was an exaggeration, but still. One episode is 45 minutes long, but for it it takes more than one hour to finish it, because I have to keep pausing. Is the scriptwriter's aim to squeeze the viewers' tears dry or what?!

Nevertheless, Code Blue is always good hehe :).

I love Aizawa. He's very perceptive. His actions speak way louder than his words, but when he does speak, his words cut like a knife. And I love how he refers to all his patients by their names. Anyway, Yamapi looks different here; his face looks more.. sculpted, somehow. Does every guy's face gets more sculpted as he gets older? (Like Won Bin's lol.) Or maybe he just lost some weight. And did I mention that he has pretty hands? XD

Aragaki Yui is so pretty :)). She doesn't look glamorous or anything; she puts on simple make-up and her clothes are plain, but she still looks pretty. How do I put this, she looks flawless.

I like Fujikawa! He's the only one who's always smiling in this drama LOL.

Eminem (feat. Rihanna) - Love The Way You Lie

I have two choices.

First is to accept the way my weight now and be happy with the way I look, and second is to lose weight until I'm happy with my looks. You might think that the first option is a much easier way out, but in fact, it is just as hard as the second. Otherwise I wouldn't have been trying to lose weight all these years. Since both are just as hard, I'd rather work hard to lose weight.

But damnnnn, losing weight is really difficult.

I'm not happy.

我真的好爱張芸京喔。

I fall for her each time I hear her sing live. I'm not even exaggerating. She's just really, really talented and you can tell that she loves music. And she's utterly adorable :).

But I'll spazz about her singing another time. These days I've been watching videos of her with guys LOL.

I like 阿京 with a lot of guys XD. I think it's because she's just really comfortable around guys, so she's cute with just about any guy haha. And I noticed that in various periods of time, she seems closer to different guys. Or maybe it's just because of the promotion period so she interacts more and hence is associated with one guy at a time.

Like during 超偶 and before the first album it was 黄文星. The thing about these two is, they openly flirt with each other A LOT!

It's all harmless flirting though. They're as close as brothers haha. But he's attached now and I never shipped them together to begin with *whistles*.

After she filmed 讓我照顧你 MV and during the first album promotions it was 七零.

七零 kept saying that 阿京 is "正" LOL; I really think that he did feel something for her XDD.

SO adorable! :3

But the thing about this pairing is, 七零 is from China and lives there. Also, she's older than him and is his senior, and somehow I think she's been treating him like a younger brother/junior. So even though 七零 seems to like her (back then, at least), I don't think they will get together.

During 相反的我 promotion period she seemed to have gotten closer to 小猪, which I have totally spazzed about before. But their relationship has been that of a 师兄-师妹; it started that way, and even though at that time I thought that 阿京 might like him, I think their relationship is gonna remain that way.

But since 義氣, I've been liking her with 敖犬 a lot! Actually that was in August/September last year, but I only watched the videos recently lol /FAIL.

He's so playful haha XD. The two are so natural together!

She said 敖犬 is the first male lead in her MVs. Then what is 七零 :X.

敖犬 was smiling all the time haha! AND didn't it look like he was gonna hug her when he rushed out towards her? XD I think it was this video that made me feel that it's not impossible for something to develop between them hehe ^^.

I spazzed SO hard at 3-4 minute HAHAHA.

I don't know, I've been watching videos of their interactions and smiling like an idiot, as if I'm on drugs XP. But I've exhausted all their videos on Youtube! 怎么办? D:

The conclusion is, I want 阿京 to have a boyfrienddd! I'll be elated if it's 敖犬 (or 小猪/七零), but as long as she's happy, I'll be happy for her ^^. I reeeeally hope that she and 敖犬 can get together though! XD

何維健 - 當我知道你們相愛

He's gonna be big :).

Sometimes I laugh at how simple-minded I can be; I'd get really happy over little things, like when my mum puts my favourite bedsheets on XD.

It's kinda funny how..

..when I liked Yoseob, I had 1001 reasons to like him and none to not like him, and as time passes even though I'm still a big fan, I'm discovering some flaws of his and realise that he's not perfect. But when I liked Wooyoung, I didn't have any reason to like him but I did, and now even though I don't like him in that way anymore, I'm finding some reasons to like him as a 2D person.

Uh I don't really know what the point of this post is lmao.

Juui Dolittle

(Dramawiki)

The reunion of Rui and Makino!!! Ahem. Shun and Narimiya Hiroki are good friends!!! Ahem sorry. Let's get this right. This drama is about vets and pets, two words which can't be separated from each other and also rhyme! LOL SORRY. Not in the right mind now. It's rare that a cast gets me this excited about a drama right from the start haha! XD

Shun acts as Tottori, a vet of first-rate surgery skills with has a sharp tongue who charges outrageously high rates for his services. He's, how do I put this, tsundere. He is merciless with his words, but he talks sense and he's essentially a kind person. I don't necessarily agree with his view that veterinary is a business, but hey, he's a damn good vet, so I'll let that slide. It's hilarious how he's always munching on veggies LOL; I should follow his footsteps and be healthy XD. I, uh, hate Shun's hair here 'cos it looks like it's supposed to look naturally messy but it's just messy without the natural bit, but I love him so that's okay; he still looks good XD. And as always, Shun delivered a solid performance! I love how Tottori's character is apparent in everything he does, right down to his walking; he was just so consistent. And even though Tottori comes across as being emotionally stunted, you can tell that there's something beneath that cold-hard exterior. His eyes are gentle, especially when he looks at animals. Shun is great.

Mao acts as Tajima Asuka, an animal-loving person who, because of her debt, came to work for Tottori as an assistant. She's a kind-hearted, innocent girl who was still finding her own path in life before she met Tottori. Mao is soooo pretty and adorable; I love her eyes! And her complexion. And everything, really. I think her eyes are great assets for her acting; she looks very convincing with that big eyes and unwavering gaze of hers.

Then there's Narimiya Hiroki, acting as Hanabishi, who is nicknamed the "Charisma Vet" and drives a bright red sports car and who's basically just a carbon copy of someone it's not even funny and the heaven is totally making fun of me.

Anyway. He has a trauma of surgeries because he made a mistake in one involving his own pet, which resulted in its death. I think Narimiya Hiroki did a really good job portraying Hanabishi's emotional struggles with his trauma.

As a whole, we get a lot of heartwarming scenes with adorable animals and moments for viewers to reflect on the way they have been treating their pets. The story can get a little draggy sometimes, but I liked this drama, and I'm not even an animal lover :). The main pull is definitely the main actors though XD.

Neeways, apparently Shun's next drama is gonna have Fujiwara Tatsuya (the guy acting as Light in Death Note) as well! I always thought that he looks like Shun LOL this is gonna be interesting~.

I realised that I hate the word "normal".

I like 阿京 with 敖犬 too!

Just sayin' XD.

I love 張芸京 ^^.

Why is she not having her concert in Singapore ;_____;.

Baek Ji Young - 그여자 (That Woman)

I'm watching Secret Garden hehe ^^. This is such a nice song :'). Baek Ji Young's voice is really distinguishable, somehow; I knew it was her even though I've only heard her voice in one song before haha. The drama has lotsa other nice soundtracks too!

Pink - Fuckin' Perfect

Love this song!

張芸京 - 情人結

張芸京! I love her~. I love her voice and I like her style in this MV! This song has a really beautiful piano melody running in the background :).

How is it possible that she's getting prettier and prettier *_________*. She looks so.. peaceful in this MV; totally gorgeous.

I LOVE JAY CHOU. FOREVER AND EVER.

Just wanna put this here XD.

My Girlfriend Is a Gumiho

(Dramawiki)

While at first sight the plot of this drama seems borderline ridiculous, once you get past that, you'll find yourself really enjoying the ride. The acting of the cast is awesome, there is a good number of eye-candies (No Min Woo! I die at the pretty *__*), the way the story develops is great and there are some really touching dialogues (like this one). I love the way the emotions are displayed; the actors' acting and the lines make them seem to be real. This drama is different from average dramas, in a good way. It has minimal of those overused, frustrating cliches that we usually see in other dramas, but retains the fluff and the tension. It is a really, really good drama. Watch it!

I've always had a soft spot for Lee Seung Gi, but after this drama, I've become a fan, hehe. Not only is he a good singer and MC, he acts very well too! It helps that his character here is more likeable than that in Brilliant Legacy. I think I'm gonna be watching his future dramas ^__^.

I also need to mention the cameo of 3 You're Beautiful casts: UEE, Park Shin Hye and Hongki, in their respective YB roles. I totally squealed seeing Jeremy again HAHAHA XD.

That's love.

Mi Ho: Is it okay that I’m different from you?

Dae Woong: It’s not okay. It’s absurd and outrageous and crazy, but I like you. I don’t like you because it’s okay to like you — it’s that because I like you, everything’s okay.

I got into fandoms for the music, for the personalities, for the crack and laughter. I got into fandoms for entertainment. I like songs, dramas and movies that can make me cry, but I don't need drama in real life.

Back then when there were lotsa controversies surrounding Jaebum's departure from 2PM, I lost interest in the band. Besides, honestly speaking, though the members were entertaining, 2PM's music didn't appeal to me then. Now that things have settled down can I really sit down and give 2PM and its current music a chance, without having to fret over those issues.

Now bigger problems are happening to DBSK. It used to be just lawyers and representatives talking, but now the members themselves are starting to talk. Even their friends are speaking out. We don't know the whole picture, and that is equivalent to not knowing anything at all. I can't judge who is right and who is wrong, and the thing is, I'm not sure I want to. All I want to know is whether they'll ever be together again. I used to think that I'd support all of them, no matter as five, three or two, but right now, I can't. It hurts too much. I don't know what hurts more, listening to old DBSK songs that I know and love or listening to new JYJ/DBSK songs that I'm not familiar with and don't even like.

The DBSK that I fell in love with had five members who were each other's pillars of support, who went through everything together and were closer to each other than real family members are. The DBSK that I fell in love with did not sound like JYJ, or the current DBSK. These two groups are foreign to me; I don't know them. With DBSK, as a fan, I'd have an obligation to listen to their songs over a period of time, after which even the ones I didn't like after the first listen tend to grow on me. But with these two groups, I don't have such an obligation. I don't have to force myself to repeatedly listen to their songs, which bring to me nothing but sadness.

I'm not blaming the members, for I'm sure they're hurting much, much more than I am. They have the right to say whatever they want without having to consider the impact their words, which can be as short as 140 letters, might have on their fans. But right now, I can't close my eyes and ears and "keep the faith", because with whatever that is happening, it doesn't even seem like the members are keeping the faith.

The 2PM I know now has 6 members, and I like that just fine. I still think that Jaebum is great and I'll support his works if they are to my liking. Similarly, maybe, after DBSK clearly states their stand and things have calmed down, I'll give them another listen, whether it's as one or two groups. It'll take a while, though, since the emotional attachment I had with 2PM can't even begin to be compared to that I had with DBSK.

But for now, I'll opt for other artists; the ones whose songs make me smile because of the sweetness of the melody or cry because of the sheer emotion in their voices, the ones who make me laugh at their antics without feeling sad because it's just not the same anymore.

Be strong, Jaejoong, Yunho, Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin.