Back then when there were lotsa controversies surrounding Jaebum's departure from 2PM, I lost interest in the band. Besides, honestly speaking, though the members were entertaining, 2PM's music didn't appeal to me then. Now that things have settled down can I really sit down and give 2PM and its current music a chance, without having to fret over those issues.
Now bigger problems are happening to DBSK. It used to be just lawyers and representatives talking, but now the members themselves are starting to talk. Even their friends are speaking out. We don't know the whole picture, and that is equivalent to not knowing anything at all. I can't judge who is right and who is wrong, and the thing is, I'm not sure I want to. All I want to know is whether they'll ever be together again. I used to think that I'd support all of them, no matter as five, three or two, but right now, I can't. It hurts too much. I don't know what hurts more, listening to old DBSK songs that I know and love or listening to new JYJ/DBSK songs that I'm not familiar with and don't even like.
The DBSK that I fell in love with had five members who were each other's pillars of support, who went through everything together and were closer to each other than real family members are. The DBSK that I fell in love with did not sound like JYJ, or the current DBSK. These two groups are foreign to me; I don't know them. With DBSK, as a fan, I'd have an obligation to listen to their songs over a period of time, after which even the ones I didn't like after the first listen tend to grow on me. But with these two groups, I don't have such an obligation. I don't have to force myself to repeatedly listen to their songs, which bring to me nothing but sadness.
I'm not blaming the members, for I'm sure they're hurting much, much more than I am. They have the right to say whatever they want without having to consider the impact their words, which can be as short as 140 letters, might have on their fans. But right now, I can't close my eyes and ears and "keep the faith", because with whatever that is happening, it doesn't even seem like the members are keeping the faith.
The 2PM I know now has 6 members, and I like that just fine. I still think that Jaebum is great and I'll support his works if they are to my liking. Similarly, maybe, after DBSK clearly states their stand and things have calmed down, I'll give them another listen, whether it's as one or two groups. It'll take a while, though, since the emotional attachment I had with 2PM can't even begin to be compared to that I had with DBSK.
But for now, I'll opt for other artists; the ones whose songs make me smile because of the sweetness of the melody or cry because of the sheer emotion in their voices, the ones who make me laugh at their antics without feeling sad because it's just not the same anymore.
Be strong, Jaejoong, Yunho, Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin.
