Firstly, I was shocked when I heard that you had passed away last night.
I know that I haven't gone back for three years, and I'm sorry that I hadn't been there even then.
I feel sorry for your/my relatives who must be feeling sad back home, but I don't feel sorry for you, as I know that you must be in some nicer place now.
I have to say that I am sorry, though, as I don't feel as sad as I should have. In fact, it kinda scares me how little sadness I feel, but I guess that maybe, it's partly because I have been away for so long.
I remember you as a man who always wear white sleeveless tops and short pants in the house. You'd sit in front of the TV or sleep during the days as you had nothing to do after you stopped helping out in the shop. You'd take a walk in the afternoons and go to the church during weekends. You'd walk slowly but surely; and the young me had always wondered why you had to walk that slowly. Was it because your legs didn't have as much strength as they used to? Was it because your vision wasn't as good as before? Or was it just the way it is as you got older? But anyway. I remember you for your smile, and when you smiled you'd make a 'heh-heh' sound. I remember that you ate messily, and you'd sit in a weird position in front of the dining table. You struck me as a friendly man and I almost never saw you lose your temper before. But honestly, there isn't much left for me to say.
I'm sorry I can't be there to attend your funeral, no matter how much I want to. It's so unfortunate that my Chinese exam happens to be on next next Monday, and after that I have SPA until that Saturday. There'll be lessons the week after, and I don't know whether I should attend them or not, but I promise that I'll go back as soon as I can.
Well, lastly, rest in peace. =)
