Guitar Farewell :).

Had farewell today! There were a couple of performances, followed by a video, presents exchange, pizza for dinner, and photo-taking. I really enjoyed myself :). The new batch of EXCO did a good job!

Honestly during the performances when they were singing/playing those slower, sad-sounding songs, I started to feel melancholic. I didn't even know why I felt that way, for I should be happy that there are no more guitar practices. But as I watched the soloists who sniggered when they made a mistake, as well as Zhi Heng who did a wonderful job in being the MC and made me laugh a lot, I started to feel better. It's a happy occasion!

The performances were great, albeit with glitches here and there xP. I think it's really cool how for some songs the audience was singing along with the performers. The soloists were awesome! Was especially impressed with Jiajin (I suspect he plays guitar every single day; no wonder he's the President haha!) and Zu Ler (he played super fast o____o); how I wish I can play half as well as them lol. I'm gonna learn more songs after the As!

There was some technical problem so the sound for the video couldn't be heard, but I'm gonna get Darren to send it to me! It's so obvious that he's the one who made it, LOL, with all the smiley faces xDD.

The J1s got presents for us mentors; a board with a photo of the whole J1 ensemble and messages on it for me and Meng Kiak, and a flower soft toy for the rest. Awww, I'm so touched x). The picture is really nice! I'm gonna look at it and smile in the future, even if I'd have forgotten some of their names. The EXCOs exchanged our presents; we gave them red and purple feathery pens for girls and guys respectively, haha! It'd be super hilarious if they all use the same pen for guitar meetings, LMAO, but I highly doubt they'd actually do that xP. Su Xian gave me a Pooh cup :D.


I just read all the messages on the board from the J1s and the cards from the EXCO, and I'm actually feeling a whole flux of emotions now. Looking back, guitar has been a big part of my JC life. Truthfully, the ensemble is filled with wonderful people :). It's a pity that I wasn't that easygoing/confident/approachable last year, so I missed the chance to get to know the members better.

To the J1 mentors: Thanks for sharing the workload in managing the J1s! I think I'd seriously have died without your help, haha xP.

To the EXCO: Thank you for everything that you've done for our CCA! You guys did a great job in fulfilling your duties and we wouldn't have been able to manage the CCA so well without all of you. It's been great working with you all :).

To the J1s: I'm really lucky to have been able to know you guys. Honestly, I've learnt a lot from interacting with you all. I've gained a lot, much more than whatever I have done for you. If you think that I always have a smile on my face, that's because after meeting you guys, I've opened up and become more confident. And it's because I enjoy leading and being with you guys. Really, thank you for everything. Admit it, you will miss me x). Just like I will miss you all at times, even though I didn't say it in my SMS. Me shy mah xPP. Love you all :).


I guess, my journey in guitar ends here. It was a very fruitful experience, one that I will never forget.

But now it's time to move on, to let go. I can't go around feeling melancholic all day x).


I love Guitar Ensemble :).

F.T Island - 여자는 몰라 (Girls Don’t Know)

Previously unreleased MV of this song, which is from their 2nd album. Wonbin looks really good here! It was cool how Jonghun switched guitar in the middle of the MV, and his guitar solo just about killed me o_____o. HONGKI! I miss his hair like that. And his eyes, OMG *_________*.

oh mann.

I lost my camera USB cable ;____;. Seriously, I'm dead meat.

Went to see the inflatable planetarium by the Astro Club. It was fun, especially because we went as a class :).

Took the Circle Line home. It's super fast! It only takes 4 minutes to travel from Bishan to Serangoon. Wow x). If you were to google Singapore's MRT line, there'd be projections of what it's gonna look like in the future. If it's really gonna be like that, that'd be damn cool :D.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow :).

disequilibrium.

I think that feelings are complicated.

Precisely because feelings are complicated, I don't even know why I feel that it is so.

it feels great :D.

I surprised myself when I told my friends about it today. I guess they were just talking about it, and it sorta came out. I'm not so good at keeping secrets after all, haha. I'm glad that I did, though. It proves that I have really gotten over it.

I used to think it was just me and my easily-affected noob of a brain. In fact, that was what I repeatedly told myself in order to regain my neutrality towards that person, in view of his profession. If I was the only one affected, then that would really be the case. But now that I'm not the only one affected, the fault doesn't lie on me anymore. Yes, it's not just me, 'cos she doesn't have a noob of a brain. At least, I don't think she does. So in conclusion, you are the screwed-up one.

And I am glad that my level of self-awareness is so high that I could save myself. Looking back on my previous relevant blog posts, it took me a while. A long while.

I hope she isn't gonna fall into the pit.

Psst, I am being so obvious. Well. Whatever.

AJ Dazzle.

Performed for the concert today. I think we did great for The Boxer, but Besame Mucho was a little messy. All in all, I'm glad that the people who watched the concert seemed to have a blast :). It sucks that we didn't get to watch the performances, though! Tried to go in after our performance, but there were no empty seats and standing was not allowed, so couldn't go in.

I don't know why, moments before our turn to perform, I went into the stoning mode. I even found the notes for Auld Lang Syne, LOL. After the performance, I was stoning again. Somehow there's this empty feeling that I can't explain. It's not like I have any close friends in Guitar that I got to know purely through the club. It's not like I love playing guitar so much, or even good at it. But I guess, I am used to having guitar practices every Wednesdays and Fridays. After next week there'll be no more. Which is a good thing, since then I'll be able to have more time for mugging. But at the same time, I know that on next Friday, I won't be feeling only happy; more like bittersweet.

I actually ate a lot, but after the performance I was feeling very hungry even after two slices of raisin bread, so I waited for my mother and brother, and we went to have Mcs together. Ate more than one large fries (since we ordered two) and Milo McFlurry, LOL. It's so sinful, right. But I don't care~. As long as I'm full now x).

There's still school tomorrow! How I wish the school had made it a holiday. I haven't done any of my tutorials. Die die.

zzzzzzzzz.

I'm really really tired. Had rehearsal for the concert from 12 to 6. I think the organisers for this concert are very inefficient; we wasted a lot of time there. And everything is like, so last minute! The concert is tomorrow, for goodness sake. Sheesh -.-.

My eyes were half-open for the whole day today. I don't know why I'm so tired. Even coffee didn't help much.

After tomorrow, there's only one more week before the June holidays. Which means that after next week, there will be no more guitar practice. Yay :).

F.T Island is coming to S'pore!

.....on the 27th June. Which is the last Saturday of the June holidays, when I'll be mugging for my midyears. Ohwells. I guess I'm just not fated to see them >.<.


EDIT: Details on the event. MANNN ;____;.

Tank - 如果我變成回憶

One of the songs from Tank's upcoming new album. It's been ages since he released his previous album; it's about time! It's a pretty song, by the way :)). The lyrics are sad. The official lyrics are not out yet, though, so I won't post the ones available online now 'cos I suspect there are some errors xP.

I'm really sleepy and I should be sleeping now, but I still want to listen to this song again and again. I'm like, staring at the screen with my eyes half open while listening to the song, lol.

I love how he sings "這樣不公平" in the last line.

漫長時光總有一天你會傷心痊愈


EDIT:

累了 照慣例努力清醒著
也照慣例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在夢中 不聽話的 就停止了

聽著 呼吸像浪潮拍動著
越美麗越讓我忐忑
我還能珍惜什麼
如果我連自己的脈搏 都難掌握

[Chorus]
*如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命
留下你錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體 擁抱不了你
想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己 如此狠心

如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著你 看晚霞落盡
漫長時光總有一天你會傷心痊癒
若有人可以 讓他陪你 我不怪你*

快樂 什麼時候會結束呢
哪一刻是最後一刻
想把你緊緊抱著
可知你是我生命中的 最捨不得

[Chorus]

如果我變成回憶 最怕我太不爭氣
頑固地賴在空氣 霸佔妳心裡 每一吋縫隙
連累依然愛我的妳痛苦承受失去
這樣不公平 請妳盡力 把我忘記

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I love this song :).

bad sign.

I have this nagging feeling that the good points about my personality change have been eroded away, leaving only a weird bitch of a personality behind. This is dangerous; if it goes on I'll turn into a real bitch. I'll try to stop this deformation =X.

I'll stop being delusional too.


EDIT:

I realised that my problem lies in my dependence on others. I've always thought that I'm quite independent, but truth to be told, I am not. Not at all. I rely on others a lot, even though I may try to hide that weakness of mine.

I've got to be more independent. I want to be stronger :).

I'm back :D.

Having really bad gastric pains now, even though I ate properly. I've been having gastric pains recently; I have a feeling that there's something wrong with my stomach =X.

However! I'm still in a good mood :).

I'm really honestly totally okay now xD. I feel so relieved that this emotional burden is gone, finally! I even said, "tadaima~" in my head 'cos I felt my real self coming back, haha x). Yeah, this is how I should be am :).

Went shopping with Shi Mun to Far East before VA. Haven't gone shopping in ages! I bought a handbag at $10, which is super cheap x). I've been buying so many things these days; sooner or later I'll go broke >.<. There are still lotsa things I wanna buy, though. And I need to lose weight!

ARGHH pain.

I feel old.

Today is not a good day.

As expected, almost everyone didn't send me their country research; only one did. I feel really tired of this whole thing. At first I had wanted to propose another class effort thing that would be much more useful, if this country research had been completed as early as it was supposed to. Now I've just about given up. They complained that normal lessons aren't really helping them since they don't have the content, and yet now when they can actually get 14 other countries' data just by doing one, they aren't meeting the deadlines. Is it that difficult to at least tell me that you can't finish on time? And anyway, I am doing two countries at once. If I have finished about 3/4 of my research, I don't see why the rest who are doing only one country haven't finished theirs, unless it's because they haven't been making an effort to do it. It's really frustrating that I have to keep telling them to send their research to me, especially since I won't actually benefit from this any more than they will.

Had guitar practice. The J1s were totally not listening to me at all. I was right in front, trying to get them to do warm-up, and they were there talking and talking and talking. Even when I raised my voice and told them to keep quiet or waited there for them to stop talking, they still continued talking. I was tired of trying to get my voice heard; me one person can't beat 40 people. So I walked out on them. But they went on talking. Seriously, I'm really disappointed. I've always thought that this batch of J1s is great; they're easygoing and generally okay. As much as I could I've been treating them like friends, not just kids/juniors. I don't want to scold since it just makes me feel old and naggy, and besides, I have never been good with scolding. Is my voice too soft? Do they find me a nag? Am I weird? Or do they just think that I'm not good enough to be leading practice? Sigh. I'm just disappointed.

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I know I'm pushing it.

full!

Had Sakae Sushi buffet with my friends today :D. I ate a lot! I'm super full now x).


On one side, I think it's fine. I'm not doing anything wrong. I just need to remember the limit. On the other hand, I still feel guilty.

My name is Poker and you can't see through my poker face.

laughs xD.

Today's a good day! I laughed a lot, a lot the whole day, over very lame things which mostly came from yours truly xP. I haven't laughed that much in a long time. Actually, I've been laughing a lot recently. Which is great :D.

Had a combined class for GP today, and I had to make a speech supporting socialism. Actually it wasn't supposed to be me, but got sabotaged lol. Anyway, it was like PW all over again. My old habits of speaking too fast, stumbling on certain words and weird gesturing came out again haha. Was super nervous since there was another class and I'm just shy by nature lah xPP. I think we did well, though, considering that it was such a last minute work x).

Chem test was completely screwed up. Like, seriously. Even though Chem is one of my better subjects. But whatever, I'll mug during the June holidays. Already asked CY to meet up in school to study together, since I know I won't study if I'm left at home with the computer xP.

Like I said, I've completely recovered :). That day I was really high/happy/hyper though, which did the trick. Thanks to the adrenaline and the spontaneity caused by the sudden encounter, I could revert back to how I used to be, way back then. However I realised that when I'm not that hyper and when I have at least a few seconds to feel doubtful, I can't be that natural. I know that I can be, though, so I'll work on it =].


If I ask, will you answer?

yay :D.

The first time I shop for clothes online! Bought a top from Sabee (you can find the banner if you scroll down) for $14.90, which is cheap x). I was quite worried whether it'd fit me at first (even though I checked the measurements and it should be fine), since I'm not exactly skinny, but it does! I think I look okay in it too :).

Need to save money; lotsa things to buy x). But lose weight first! haha.

Family outing x).

Yesterday was my mum's birthday! In the afternoon we cut the mango cake that I bought, then my brother treated us for dinner at Ichiban Sushi. I ate katsu curry, chawanmushi, miso soup, and drank ice lemon tea. Man, I was so full I could barely move. I think my weight will have increased when I take my weight tomorrow after PE =X.

There's Chemistry test tomorrow, which includes a hell lot of topics 'cos it includes Organic Chem. I am so dead.

wow.

Somebody is famous x).

I'll be famous too in the future xP.

Good day!

Everyday is a good day, once I decide so x). Certain people can make me laugh/smile more than others can, but I'll make sure that I don't depend on them to make me happy, so that no one can bring my mood down. No one can stop me from smiling :D.

I found my guitar! :D

Someone took the wrong guitar it and put in another guitar bag. Went to the guitar room this morning and opened every guitar bag in the room. Felt more demoralised with each one, but I finally found it! I think my lifespan just got shortened by 10 years, lol xP.

Physics SPA was easy! Yesterday I really couldn't concentrate 'cos I was too depressed over my guitar, but my friend told me that copying down the solution helps, so I did. And it helped :). No more SPA :DD!

I felt so happy after SPA, plus the fact that I found my guitar, so I was really happy :D. If I have wings I'd be flying, LOL xDD. I'm gonna continue my happy streak haha!

Watched Angels & Demons before VA today. Somehow Thursday has turned into a movie outing day x). I think it was okay. I'm a super big fan of the book, so at some parts I was "ehh"-ing in my mind when they changed certain things. But I think it's still not bad :).


I've completely recovered :)).

I think I've been too happy lately.

I lost my guitar.

I put it in room 412 which was full of J2 mentors and some J1s, then went to 411 to lead J1s' practice. Around 10-15 minutes later practice ended and I went back to 412, only to find my guitar gone. I asked/called/SMSed the J2 mentors and all of them didn't take it. I mass SMSed all the J1s already, but no one replied.

Feeling very depressed. I'm quite sure that someone took it by mistake, but still, I went around asking the J1s who left later just now and no one had it. If really no one took it, I don't know what I'm gonna do ;____;.

Almost cried in the bus, while walking home, when I was bathing, now. But I can't cry 'cos my mum would notice that my eyes and nose are red, and then I'd have to explain, which I want to avoid at all cost unless it's really gone.

There's Physics SPA tomorrow. Hope I can concentrate later.

I think I've been feeling too happy these few days, and this is a punishment. "What goes up must come down", right?

T_____________________________________T

The power of the mind :DD.

I'm happy for the whole day today :D.

Not because of coffee, or something, or someone, but just because I decided to be happy. I wasn't even faking, 'cos I was truly feeling happy. I was smiling so much today, haha x).

It's amazing what our mind can do :).

I wonder how long this self-induced adrenaline can last, though. I hope it'll last for a long time =].

There's Econs test tomorrow! That's my worst subject, man. I have a feeling I'll do badly, since it's Case Study, plus the topics are Growth + Balance of Payment, both of which I never even read =X.

But anyway, I got an A for my Maths test :D.

F.T Island - 그대와 나 (You And I)

One of the lighter songs in their Jump Up mini album, which was released a few months ago. I've always liked this song, but somehow it makes me really happy today :D. Jonghun sings the verses and Jaejin the first 2 chorus; they sound good! Jaejin's voice is really super cute, as cute as himself xDD. He sings very well! I can't describe Jonghun's voice, but he sings well too :). And he got a nice guitar solo in this song!

Hongki only sings in the last 50 seconds of the song. When I first listened to this song I was pleasantly surprised that the other 2 members were singing, but I was also wondering if Hongki sang in this song at all, haha. To be really honest, when he sang the "geudaema~" adlib at 3:09, I had to use my hand to cover my mouth 'cos I was smiling too widely LOL! Even now, when I listen to this song, I always smile like an idiot at that part.

I really, really love Hongki's voice ♥♥♥♥♥. There are a lot of singers whose voices I go all gaga for, because they sing so well, or with so much emotion, or they just never sound bad. Hongki's voice is different; he does sing well, sing with a lot of emotion and never sound bad, but most importantly, his voice makes me happy :)).

lazy!

I'm not gonna do the food diary anymore 'cos I''m too lazy to think of the English terms of the dishes, LOL. I realised that I don't know so many of them =X. I'll just post my weight here whenever I take weight ^^.

I've been reading mangas and visiting blog shops, while listening to No Surprise and Moonlight Angel for the whole day, lol. See what I mean when I say that I'm really unproductive during holidays? Sigh.

I realised that recently I've been letting others decide my mood, so I've decided that from now on, I won't let that happen anymore! I'll always be smiling. I'll always be happy :).

It's difficult to wake up early =X.

Yesterday I ate/drank:
1 Yakult
1 bowl of oats + milk + banana
1 plate of rice + 1 KFC chicken without skin + spinach soup with corn
2 fried thingy that my mum made
1 plate of rice + pork + potato with tofu + spinach soup with corn
1 plate of fruits (papaya and sunkist orange)

I actually refused all the sinful stuff, but most of the time I'm not given the choice haha. I realised that it sounds like a lot, but it's quite normal actually; I eat 3 full meals and more when I stay at home xP.


Was browsing LJ and stumbled upon this picture:












Judging from the hairstyles, this was from their early days. I was thinking that Hongki is really pretty when I saw the pink text, and that made me LOL-ed xDD.

Daughtry - No Suprise

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

[Chorus]
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why

[Chorus]

The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wrong and right, our memories
The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

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The first single off Daughtry's second album, Leave This Town, which will be out on July 14. The band performed it for the first time on American Idol this week, which obviously I caught on TV, owing to my brother who's a faithful follower of the show x).

I love this song! Chris' voice sounds different somehow, as if he's having a cold. But either way, he still sounds great :). I've always liked how clear his pronounciation is ^^. Somehow the song sounds harder than his previous songs, but still has that softness to it. I don't know how to explain it, but I think rock/pop is the perfect genre for Chris. If all the songs in the new album are this good, the album is so going to rock :D.

All along I've been waiting for the band's second album, since the first was released ages ago in 2006, but I didn't expect it to be released this year. I said that this year I'm only going to buy Jay's album, but there's no way in hell I can miss Daughtry's, so I'll obviously be buying that too :DD.

LOL.

Currently researching GP stuff.

But then I thought of trying to search for this blog on Google, and guess what? IT'S SO EASY TO FIND, especially if you know me well enough. I only typed a few things and it was right there on the first page of results.

Should I get a password-protected blog?

Nah, I don't feel like it. Whatever is written here can be read by the whole world; as if that bothers me >:D.

And it's as if anyone I'm not close with would try to find my blog, LMAO xDD.

Do you want to try searching this blog on Google too? See whether you can find me xP.

gmorning :).

I always wake up this late during holidays. Call me a pig xD.

I think the food diary Peirong's doing is quite fun. So I'm gonna start one too xP.

Yesterday I ate/drank:
-1 ice coffee
-1 pink guava
-1 mango madness
-1 plate of fruits (papaya, banana, sunkist orange)

That's all lol. I only had one half-an-hour break and after school I totally lost my appetite. Didn't feel like eating dinner too. Thankfully my mom didn't cook and just bought me curry puff from Delifrance, so I could just refuse x). The plate of fruits was compulsary (lol) though, so I had to eat it first and then slept at almost 10pm. I had a good sleep :D.

I want to lose weight! I'm now 60.0kg =X. 2 weeks ago it was 59.4kg, but it increased :(. Ohwells, I'm gonna lose more weight >:D.

I'm okay now :). Didn't manage to make myself puke 'cos I could only take 2 glasses of water at once maximum, and I think my stomach was empty haha. But yep, I'm fine already.

I think it's a good thing that I had to be with the J1s yesterday, even if it was for a mere half an hour. An alumni was leading them before that, during which I talked with the other J1 mentors and later joined the SYF group for practice. I was trying to play normally during the practice, but after a few meek attempts I decided that I couldn't sway with the rest, and I didn't even want to look at the conductor as I didn't want her to see my :(( face. So I mostly just played looking at the ground. But later with the J1s, I obviously had to act normal since they would be looking at me. So I did, as much as I could, even though like I said, I think I failed. And I think it helped settling my feelings down. Who knows that acting normal could make me more normal? haha. After practice I walked with the kid to the guitar room 'cos he was carrying the stands and I wanted to put my guitar (actually that's not allowed if there's no practice the next day, but somehow I felt that I couldn't carry it back), and I really was talking and smiling normally, without even having to try :).

I'm fine now! Really =].

My mum bought KFC for lunch *gasp in horror*.

someone slap me, please.

I knew that you noticed that there's something weird about me. I think you could even guess the reason why, even though it might not have been entirely accurate. Thanks for spelling it out loud and clear. I already cleared my head and got over it, but I think now I can finally let go. I really tried, but I realised that I can't go back to how I was. I can't go back, for I can't pretend that nothing is wrong, for hypocrisy isn't in my blood. But it's okay, I'm fine with how things are now. Even if you're reading this, though that's impossible, I'm fine with that.

It's been seven hours since I started feeling like there's a lump in my chest, that I can't get rid of. It's kinda hard to breathe. I was really unstable in these past 7 hours; sighing deeply (it was partly because I was trying to breathe), shaking in laughter and finding myself staring into space every now and then. My switch was broken. Thanks, CY :).

I didn't want to go for guitar practice at first, 'cos I felt like I was going to and needed to puke. Still went in the end, though, as I am a responsible Coordinator LOL. I think it's kinda obvious to the other mentors that I was feeling down, since at times I'd slap myself before going into the room, setting my face into a smile. It should have been quite obvious to the J1s too since I wasn't as high as usual, and I told my group that I was in a bad mood, laughing after that. haha. Luckily I didn't have a mirror with me, so I couldn't see how fake I must have looked.

I think some people have the natural ability to make others around them happy. Thanks, kid, for making me forget, even if it was only for that short moment =].

Been listening to Moonlight Angel on repeat for the whole day. Somehow it feels kinda ironic.

The lump in my chest is still there. I think I need to drink lots of water and make myself puke or something, then sleep really early. Then I'll be fine tomorrow :).

Good thing there's no school on Monday! How I wish I can take the whole week off.

F.T Island - Moonlight Angel

One of the three songs from their I Believe Myself single, and clearly my favourite out of the three. It's such a pretty song, with the guitar and a bit of drums during the quiet verses by Jaejin and Seunghyun, and louder instrumentals during the chorus where Hongki's voice really stands out in. Jonghun got a guitar solo! I'm sleepy so I won't talk about the rest of the single, but F.T Island's music never fails :D. This song was co-written by Jaejin and co-composed by Jonghun! How awesome is that :)).

Can you hear me
I don't want to cry anymore

Hongki~! Your voice alone is music for my ears :).

I predict that this song will be the one I'll be playing on repeat in the near future x).

I'm sleepy but happy :D.

I only slept 3 hours last night (don't ask why), so I reached school in the walking-zombie mode, with my eyes half open. Drank Good News Cafe's ice coffee and man, I could literally feel life surging through me xD. It kept me awake and high for the whole day! I didn't fall asleep in all lessons (which includes the 2-hour Physics tutorial) and even the 1.5 hour GP lecture.

Watched X-Men Origins: Wolverine today, before the Physics VA, with a few classmates. I thought the action scenes in the movie are good, but somehow it kinda felt like something was missing; I'd have preferred it to be more action-packed. The character development of the main characters is great! I totally loved the beginning which showed the growing-up process of Victor and Logan, and how their personalities started to differ. Superbly done :). Wolverine is totally cool; I love his personality :D. His girlfriend is pretty too. The very last scenes were really random, though! How come he could understand Japanese, LOL.

I don't know since when, a switch appeared in my head. It's a switch for me to change my personality, from the normally quiet me to the abnormally high me. The original me keeps to myself, has very low self confidence and only talks when I need to. The later me doesn't give a damn about what others think of me, which I guess makes me free to do anything on a whim, all the while crapping and laughing a lot. I think this split personality started to appear when the J1s first came to guitar, for my role as a Nanny Coordinator put me in a position where I had no choice but to interact with strangers and leading them, thus forcing me to open up. Yeah, I think that's it. Whatever the reason was, I think it's a change for the better. Most importantly, I realised that I'm not faking the other personality of mine; it had always been there, for I'm usually very crappy around my brother lol. I just put too much restrictions around myself when I'm with other people. But now I have decided to be more optimistic and confident. It's not very good to stay in this dual personality situation, since it's quite unstable -- I tend to be all laugh-y and crappy, which can be misunderstood as being crazy, or worse, fake. I'm still being myself, so I can say that I'm natural, but I want to have one balanced personality, haha. Being REAL is still the most important thing, ultimately :).

I didn't realise that I typed so much, lol x). I re-read the paragraph and find some sentences don't link with each other; they are kinda all over the place. Ohwells, please understand that I was typing while thinking, haha xP.

Lotsa things to do! I think I'm gonna take a 1-hour nap first, though. Otherwise I'd seriously not be able to do anything haha!

I'm humorous :D.

I think I'm kinda high today for no reason, LOL. Said a lot of lame stuff especially towards the end of the day, and got into a laughing fit during Physics lecture. Got laughed at again during guitar practice. I don't mind people laughing at me, actually, as long as it's not in the negative way x).

Mdm Khoo made an inspiring speech in front of the SYF group after practice today. I totally agree with what she said. So what if we got a Bronze? We played our very best and I'm not ashamed to tell people that we got a Bronze. I don't even bother to get angry at people who look down on us because of that Bronze; I'd just sound like I'm being defensive and besides, I don't care what others think. I'm proud that we all worked hard together.

I'm going to watch that Wolverine movie tomorrow, regardless of who I'm going with. Wolverine is super cool :D.

And admit it, the title of the post made you laugh. See, I am humorous xDD.

We all learn from our mistakes :).

1. Nice people rock :D. Freaks and flirts, screw you off :DD.


2. Totally unrelated, but I overheard someone saying this, "You rock. I stone."
Just thought that it's funny xD.


3. Been listening to Kelly Clarkson's Cry on repeat these few days. I'm really not emo-ing -- when I say I like a song's lyrics it doesn't mean that I can identify with them -- but that song is really good =].

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

It's all already gone :D. Coincidentally, Already Gone is another song in her album that I like a lot xP.


4. I hope school won't close down because of swine flu, 'cos even though there's always the IVLE, I know myself best -- there are too many distractions online for me to be productive. I want to go to school >:[.

random post xD.

Chemistry SPA was okay! I think I managed to remember most of what was supposed to be written :).

I've been getting more and more bitchy lately. I don't even try to be neutral nowadays, which is not a good thing =X.

I think it's common for people to SMS their friends, whether they're of the same gender or otherwise, to remind them to do something, or to wish them luck for a test on the following day. I do that all the time. ....yeah right; I don't. Most people do, though. Right? Right.

There's Maths common test tomorrow! I'm so screwed.

Sneak peek into the musical Sonagi, starring Jaejin.

I'm SO PROUD ♥♥♥. I've always known that Jaejin has a nice voice and can sing well, but really, he has improved a lot since FTI first debuted. In their latest single I Believe Myself (which I haven't got around listening yet =X), he was introduced as "Bass and Vocal"! Well, it's about time, since he has been singing more lately ^^. But anyway! The musical looks really fun. Jaejin is totally cute, especially when he hugged the pole when he was embarassed xDD. Good job, Jaejin :)!

I need to...

1. Finish the tutorials that are due next week
2. Study for Chemistry SPA next Monday
3. Study for Maths common test next Tuesday
3. Do GP country research on North and South Korea
4. Save money, then go shopping
5. Lose a lot of weight